Open wound

A little bit of love but no longer will i need it.
i tried to dream out loud but i never came close to succeeding
My life ain’t fair and i’m starting to think it was me they cheated.
Feels like winter every season because my heart started freezing
my head is full of questions with no answers,
yet i’m still searching for the reason.

My mothers on drugs so she never knew how to love
I almost died due to her addiction she never cared nor did she ever listen.
My brother ran away i knew i wasn’t safe but i always thought he was blessed

I sat in my room with tears and bruises knowing my life’s a mess.
i Cried because i was scared and  stressed
I don’t want this life i got a hope and dream to feed but i can’t achieve because
my moms too strung out and mean But i gotta keep on wishing because i’m too close to succeeding
That, i can’t stop believing.

A little bit of love but no longer will i need it.
i tried to dream out loud but i’ve never came close to succeeding
My life ain’t fair and i’m starting to think it was me they cheated.
  Feels like winter every  season because my heart started freezing
My head is full of questions with no answers yet
i’m still searching for the reason.

Wheres my dad? No job means no money for a phone So i can’t even call.
I miss him so much but he’s not thinking of  me at all.
Where’s my big sister?
Man she left me here to die she  pinky promised and swore on the bible saying she will never abandon me
But that’s lie
I look up the stars and i try not to cry but it hurts so bad i even tell myself a lie.
“Things are gonna change and things are are gone  get better, one day their love will finally be as real as black leather”.

A little bit of love but no longer will i need it
i tried to dream out loud but i’ve never came close to succeeding
My life ain’t fair and i’m starting to think it was me they cheated.
Feels like winter every  season because my heart started freezing
My head is full of questions with no answers, yet
i’m still searching for the reason.

Dear god, don’t give up on me. I want everybody to see ME not through me ,or even my eyes i dont care thats fine
just as long as the audience can read between the lines.
I’m still young when will my life start? i feel it’s my life’s coming to an end
it’s make-believe like art…i guess, i’m just living in a dry lake, no water or waves not even a fish to Swim by and say hey
This world is cold and lonely. I just hope and pray for my sake that this bad dream will grow wings and fly away.

A little bit of love but no longer will i need it.
i tried to dream out loud but I’ve never came close to succeeding,
My life ain’t fair
And i’m starting to think it was me they cheated.
Feels like winter every season because my heart started freezing.
My head is full of questions with no answers yet
i’m still searching for the reason.

Read between the lines the outside and my life
The word discipline is just a figure a speech to me.
I hate that it was even used upon me.
Where am i supposed to go from here?
I don’t know either, just understand my pain.
Patch up my open wound before my brain goes BOOM!  Read between the lines is all i ask from you.

a little bit of love but no longer will i need it
…it’s all an open wound, and its still leaking.
Bandages and stitches never help.
It’ll stop one day. i’ll Just pray. Don’t judge me
it’s just my life.

A little bit of love but no longer will i need it
i tried to dream out loud but i’ve never came close to succeeding
My life ain’t fair
And i’m starting to think it was me they cheated.
Feels winter every season because my heart started freezing
My  head full of questions with no answers yet
I’m still searching for the reason.

Somebody, anybody please patch my hole in my heart.
Maybe you can cure someone else too.

Copyright© Kiah-kay Holman, 2015

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