This feeling inside me, I can’t describe.
This is what it must feel like to feel hurt
My heart feels stuck
Is it pumping blood?
This feeling inside of me, I can’t describe.
Am I depressed?
I don’t feel beautiful
My hair Isn’t blonde
I can’t describe
My arms feel weak
My chest feels cold on the outside
Warm on the inside
My eyes are tearing consistently
I feel like my confidence is gone
My nose is too big
I’m not skinny
My teeth aren’t straight
My hair isn’t rapunzel
And my eyes aren’t diamond shaped
I’ve never gotten a compliment to
Run on about with a smile
Am I feeling nauseous?
I really need help.
I’m stuck on one song on the playlist
Im in deep thought
So deep it can cut down into my arteries.
I don’t know what I’m thinking
And I really don’t know how I’m feeling
I’m mad, sad, hurt for no reason even sleepy.
Am I bipolar?
I feel like over dosing but sadly that isn’t
The cure, it won’t solve my problem.
Or is it even a problem?
Maybe i’m just in an uncomfortable position
that makes me feel very closed in
If I take a look in the mirror
will I see an hideous mistake?
I have no one to blame but myself,
because I didn’t believe in myself
I allowed others opinions to cutt my skin from the inside
but I know what and who I am.
I am a human being just like you
and I know If I look deep down inside
I can see how beautiful and smart I am
An intelligent unmiserable person.
I don’t need make up, weave, money or a nice body to feel happy about me.
Maybe this was all just a fear I’ve never overcame.
I will always be me
And I will always be beautiful
I am pretty again
Even if you never think so
For I am a child of a king and queen
Copyright© Kiah-kay Holman, 2015